Lazy Day..

Today has been a very lazy day. Kayce, (not to be confused with the girl KACEY in the photo to the left here) and I have been sitting here watching movie after movie. Yesterday I introduced her to Religulous which is one of my new favorite movies/documentaries. Then Chasing Amy, in fact I believe that with the course of the many people we had staying at the house last night, i repeated Chasing Amy twice because I feel EVERYONE should see that movie. And then I ended the night falling asleep to the movie Prey for Rock & Roll which is a fantastic movie starring Gina Gershon. I definitely recommend all 3 of those.

Today however we have watched a scary movie, and scary because its real...but the movie Jesus Camp was terrifying, I felt bad for Kayce because every so often I would yell at the movie about their contradicting beliefs, and whatnot. But its okay...its all over now.

Now a little bit about the picture I chose to show today. This would be my friend Kacey K. She photographs as well. Mostly all film and I'm a huge fan of all her work. A month or so ago we did a mini photoshoot just to get some good pictures of her tattoos, this has turned into one of my favorites. Its a little blurry, but I love the focus and closeness of this picture.

I love shooting people. :)

Anyway, back to the Lazy Day theme. Have a Lazy Day, its good for you!

And so it begins...

Blogging is good for the soul right? I think so. Well I mean writing at least is good. Bare your soul on paper. I promise you won't regret it, and if you do, be happy you at least have something show for right?

In this picture here I wanted to emphasize a sense of abandonment. This past summer I had to completely abandon any sense of self I thought I had. I realized quickly I had abandoned myself to accommodate others. Though I don't know if I'll ever be able to quit that habit, I know that if you abandon your comfort zone, that sense of familiarity you can observe yourself in an aspect that maybe others see in you. Too many times do I lose myself in other people. The thing is, no matter what people say, and maybe its just in my case, but maybe in your life everything you do, say, feel, and act is really nothing you found on your own. Its a combined effort of everybody around you. Thus brings on some quotes from a recent book I read.

INVISIBLE MONSTERS by CHUCK PALAHNIUK

"Nothing of me is original. I am the combined effort of everybody I've ever known.."

...Beauty is power like money is power like a gun is power. Your heart is my pinata. The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.

There are worst things you can do to the people you love than kill them. No matter how much you think you love somebody, you'll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close.

As soon as we become boring we die. Never ever become boring.

And married people always think love is the answer.

The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open..."

I have never felt so close to a piece of text in a while, not counting personal letters, pictures, and my journal, but really, everything about that I just can't take my eyes off. You know most days I find the courage and energy to write something down I'm at work, I'm in the car, or I'm in some sort of social event that I don't have the time to be anti-social and get a notebook out and write it down. And so this begins, I am starting this for me, to get my brain out. Out on paper, internet, something. Because the more I've been keeping it in, the crazier I appear. And I swear, I'm not that crazy.